I feel it

how i am standing up for myself and speaking clearly finally

the only thing is, i'm more than twenty years too late

and i'm defending myself against my fathers words 

but he is not here

you are

it's just the words that are hurting me or threatening to

so I find my dragon strength and roar at you

and the thing is that even if i were to find my fight to 

say to him it's not okay, that he cannot say those things, that he cannot treat me that way

he would be standing up against that

and his furry that i feel 

would be directed at someone from his past

his mother or perhaps all the people who were never there

so it's truly a task

to unravel it all

and hard to believe that it's not really the moment at hand after all

when you feel the energy turning to anger 

when you feel real tears filling your eyes

it is so very hard

nearly impossible

to remember that we have all lived other lives