i make my own unhappiness

All I don't have hurts.

What an eye opener reading this.

" The greater part of human pain is unecessary. It is self-created as long as the unobserved mind runs your life. the pain that you create now is always some form of non-acceptance, some form of unconscious resistance to what is"
                                                                    - Eckhart Tolle

 

I really and truly need to embrace the life I have.  Even if it's small.
I need to SEE what I do have.

* hot water
* sun rises - sun filled mornings
* treasures in the mail
* stars at night: i always forget to go outside and look. i'm not used to being able to see the stars.

Anyway, I think it's true, I make my own sadness from feeling the heaviness of all I have lost and the overwhelming awareness of all that I want and do not have.

I want to not want the things I want.