My heart is racing so fast - there might be a place for me after all in this world.. while i have been deeply regretting not pursuing a career in arts or art education - and also knowing i wasn't motivated enough to supply teach for two or more years before getting the oh so wished for temporary or dare i hope permanent teaching position.. i am very specific, i am great with little ones however i am also done with daycare.. i belong somewhere between preschool-and grade 3.
this brings us to the fantastic school that makes me believe that i could pursue my own happiness and the feeling of being home, while still, being a teacher and caring, loving and educating children. I can stand up tall and say with my whole being that i am for the earth, for the ancient, for the flowers and fruits, for colour, for crafting and not so totally aligned with technology being the answer for everything. While i don't love blackboards - smartboards and having students have iphone projects on the go, the fact that a poor student would be left far behind.. how in the world did owning a laptop become a necessity..
but to be apart of this strange and wonderful world - i needed 4 years of training on top of my Bachelor of Education and University degree... really? More teacher training. Now, don't get me wrong, I would love more training, I never want to stop learning new ways of reaching kids and bringing technicolour to their experience in school.. but i can't afford 1 more year, let alone 4..
so in about a day or two, I went from knowing exactly where I belonged..and filling with a happy heat - to being completly crushed and knowing that my new found dream was far far beyond my reach.
oh and i also hesitated because of the fact that early literacy is not something that is focused on or even really taught. But, Waldorf is not encouraging illiteracy.. just not teaching it to four and five year olds.. but they are teaching the German language and Greek Mythology..and did I mention basket weaving - well not actually, but instrument making, woodworking, water colour painting, things using yarn ..
but guess what? Hope against hope, they are hiring teachers now without the training.. the training is necessary BUT not prior to the job offer..
the school isn't in the town we're in. It might mean my husband leaving his job. but it's a very small window that not only makes me happy in my vocation, but earases years of regret at the same time. i'm ready! looks like i gave up on being a forest elf too soon
can u imagine being payed to make flower crowns!
A-men!
this is a prayer- I can't get this without a miracle! I am holding my breathe and holding out my hands
I would love my life, be proud of who i am, and be able to change the world. just a little bit. one child and one engaging story telling at a time :)
