who knows?

 

  No coffee

  and I am still not sleeping 

  What is it that compels me to stay awake

what do I think will be answered by morning

What important work is all my night time whatever ness

amounting to

not sleeping is hurting my mind and depriving me from delicious dreams

it is stretching out each minute and not allowing the day to end

is that it

was it so wonderful. it would have been more wonderful 

if i had just let it end when it did

midnight

i suppose that isn't too terrible

but i am doing something wrong

not being at work this week

and yet i know that my body is still healing

i cry

because i do not know if i'm making a mess of everything

or if i am being wise